Thank you, Jesus, for your sacrifice on the cross.
This is the testimony of a woman named Janice.
She was an ordinary person, living an ordinary life, until the moment she took her last breath and found herself in the presence of God. What she saw there, she was asked to carry back and share.
She is not selling anything, and she is not here to convince anyone. She only wants to tell you, plainly, what happened, in the hope that it reaches someone who needs it.
The shapes moving through this page are the ancient geometry woven through creation, each one paired with the Word of God. Let them wash over you as you read. You are welcome here, exactly as you are.
אֶת־קַשְׁתִּי נָתַתִּי בֶּעָנָן וְהָיְתָה לְאוֹת בְּרִית בֵּינִי וּבֵין הָאָרֶץ
et-qashti natati be’anan, wehayeta le’ot berit beini uvein ha’aretz
“I have set my bow in the cloud, and it shall be a sign of the covenant between me and the earth. And it shall come to pass, when I bring a cloud over the earth, that the bow shall be seen in the cloud, and I will remember my covenant. The waters shall no more become a flood to destroy all flesh. And the bow shall be in the cloud, and I will look upon it, that I may remember the everlasting covenant.”
Genesis 9:13–16
καὶ ἶρις κυκλόθεν τοῦ θρόνου ὅμοιος ὅράσει σμαραγδίνῳ
kai iris kyklothen tou thronou homoios horasei smaragdino
“And there was a rainbow round about the throne, in sight like unto an emerald.”
Revelation 4:3
וּמַרְאֵיהֶם וּמַעֲשֵׂיהֶם כְּאוֹפַן בְּתוֹך־הָאוֹפָן
uphneihem umaʽaseihem kʾʽophan bʽthokh haʽophan
“Their appearance and their workings were as it were a wheel in the middle of a wheel.”
Ezekiel 1:16
Before I tell you what happened, sit for a moment in the light.
The same order that holds the stars was holding me.
Then He spoke.
You are welcome here. Truly.
Whatever you believe, and whatever you don't, there is a place for you on this page. I am not here to convince anyone of anything. I only want to share something that was given to me, in case it helps someone the way it helped me. You can stay as long as you like. You can leave whenever you need to. However you came, you are welcome just as you are.
What it was like, in my own words
In the moment I took my last breath I realized I desperately wanted to live. As I died here in my body, my person was immediately present before the Spirit of God. Miraculously, I had entered the holy place by the blood of Jesus. He did not condemn me. The power of His presence radiated through my essence, His love like a ravaging force.
Immediately the words, “Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice on the cross,” escaped from my mind as I tried to speak. The power that emanated from Abba Father cannot be truly expressed with human words in any language that I know. This love and power is more real than we can imagine. He is holy, pure, and yet HE knew me fully. This power is love and also what seemed like the source of all things.
“This power is love, and also what seemed like the source of all things.”
לֹא‑אֲחַלֵּל בְּרִיתִי וּמוֹצָא שְׂפָתַי לֹא אֲשַׁנֶּה
lo achallel beriti, umotza sefatai lo ashaneh
“My covenant will I not break, nor alter the thing that is gone out of my lips. Once have I sworn by my holiness that I will not lie.”
Psalm 89:34–35
I had questions. I think anyone would. What do I do now. What do I say. What do I change. Where would I ever learn all of it. I asked, not really expecting an answer. Each one came back gently. Short and sure and full of love, all at once.
“What do I do?”
Love them.Love all the people you are looking at right now, without favoring some over others, and without holding any of them away from you.
“What do I say?”
The truth.Tell the whole truth of what happened between you and me. About who I am, and about who you are. Not a tidier version. The real one, always.
“What do I change?”
Nothing.You do not have to change yourself. You could not if you tried. I will do that work in you, and through you, by my Spirit. You only have to let me.
“Where will I learn everything?”
It’s already inside of you.Everything you could ever need to give those living, breathing people is already in you. My word is already in you. You are not being sent out empty.
ἄγγελον ἰσχυρὸν καταβαίνοντα ἐκ τοῦ οὐρανοῦ, περιβεβλημένον νεφέλην, καὶ ἡ ἶρις ἐπὶ τῆς κεφαλῆς
angelon ischyron katabainonta ek tou ouranou... kai he iris epi tes kephales
“And I saw another mighty angel come down from heaven, clothed with a cloud: and a rainbow was upon his head, and his face was as it were the sun.”
Revelation 10:1
I did not want much of this to be about me. I only asked for one small thing. That my name be here somewhere, quietly, and that its meaning be told the way it really is.
Yochanan. The Hebrew root the name Janice grew from.
“God is gracious”
Janice C.
You were known, fully, before you ever arrived.
The love is more real than anything you have called real.
Nothing you carry is too heavy for the room He kept for you.
You do not have to earn your way in. You are already wanted.
What you needed to give the world is already inside you.
In her own voice
She shares more of what she has seen, and what she is still learning, in her own words.
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ἐγὼ τὸ Ἀλφα καὶ τὸ ẖ, ὁ πρῶτος καὶ ὁ ἔσχατος, ἡ ἀρχὴ καὶ τὸ τέλος
egō to Alpha kai to Ō, ho prōtos kai ho eschatos, hē archē kai to telos
“I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.”
Revelation 22:13
“It’s already inside of you.”
Thank you, Jesus, for your sacrifice on the cross.